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[sabra_la_iudex.insanejournal.com]

Who: All the good little anti-entropy engine girls and boys and others
Where: On the way back towards the dorms
When: Day 258, evening, so very shortly after Good Ends
What:

[As the festivities end and it’s time to head back to dorms, there seems to hang an uneasy feeling that has nothing to do with bittersweet goodbyes. The particularly astute may notice an uncomfortable stillness about; not a living thing is out and active, save the Blanks. Even the river seems stilled, as if holding its breath. The more sensitive can probably feel it coming, whatever it is. Even the insensitive may find something about the walk home distasteful.]

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Re: [Everywhere]

[brother_con.insanejournal.com]

[that's safe]

...You understand... I was more or less hoping to have this conversation with someone who had a bit more of an ambiguous relationship with my brother, for relevant advice, but...

Re: [Everywhere]

[hemogobbled.insanejournal.com]

[totes safe]

But you'll take what you can get?

Re: [Everywhere]

[brother_con.insanejournal.com]

...always.

[can I just. Take a seat on your coffin or somewhere.]

Re: [Everywhere]

[hemogobbled.insanejournal.com]

[sure]

I'll give what I can.

So what's Rolo's problem?

Re: [Everywhere]

[brother_con.insanejournal.com]

[h-hesitates, hesitates]

I'm not... very good with feelings? You know that, I think. With how people mean them, or with expressing that myself. After a point I really don't know how to react. And there's a situation that I really... don't know... I don't know what to do. About Brother.

Re: [Everywhere]

[hemogobbled.insanejournal.com]

Lot of people have problems with feelings. Your brother isn't really a champion there either. What's the sitch?

Re: [Everywhere]

[brother_con.insanejournal.com]

Not the same way I do. [lips purse, irritably] I don't know... affection, besides my Brother and a couple of people on my team. It's hard to judge.

...

Brother and I have been flirting since I got here, and kissing in games, but there have been... rules... we never broke. Nothing outside games. Ah, after you two fought, he broke that rule and kissed me very, very thoroughly. Even though the game was over and he'd never picked me in it. It was ...nice... and when I went to talk to him about his... new situation, we almost did it again, but Sunny interrupted. Brother told me he'd see me later.

So I waited, and I -- suppose I got carried away... in what it might mean for me... but when he came to visit he told me we can't. We can't anymore.

But he kept flirting, even though we can't.

Re: [Everywhere]

[hemogobbled.insanejournal.com]

Aah. Kitten is a tease. How terribly cruel.

Re: [Everywhere]

[brother_con.insanejournal.com]

I don't know what to do. He didn't like hearing that I'd wait until he wanted to again. But I don't know what to do about him. Or about Sunny. I keep thinking, Sunny must have said something to stop him.

If Brother wanted to stop on his own, he would go cold. He's perfectly capable of it. This just means he still wants to. I don't understand any of it.

Re: [Everywhere]

[hemogobbled.insanejournal.com]

Some people have this idea of only being in that kind of relationship with only one person. Whether it's Kitten's idea or Sunny's idea, I couldn't tell you.

Re: [Everywhere]

[brother_con.insanejournal.com]

I understand the idea, but if he wanted that he wouldn't keep teasing.

Re: [Everywhere]

[hemogobbled.insanejournal.com]

'Not wanting' and 'not letting yourself have' are different things. And Kitten is greedy.

Re: [Everywhere]

[brother_con.insanejournal.com]

Maybe... he could be just a little more greedy or a little less, instead of being just this amount of greedy...

[clenches his hands on his pants, over his knees]

Re: [Everywhere]

[hemogobbled.insanejournal.com]

...You know. You don't have to do everything at his pace. Rolo can be greedy too.

Re: [Everywhere]

[brother_con.insanejournal.com]

I can't take too much from him. I'm... I know that if I pushed he'd fall under it. However much I want ... however much he'd be willing to give if I pushed, I'd be the one who loses out if he hates me for it.

Re: [Everywhere]

[hemogobbled.insanejournal.com]

[leans over and pushes a finger under your chin]

Kitten isn't going to hate you forever. Have a little faith in yourself.

Re: [Everywhere]

[brother_con.insanejournal.com]

[looks up at him but there's just something kinda. Off. In his eyes.]

I don't have enough to risk the things I have just because I want more.

Re: [Everywhere]

[hemogobbled.insanejournal.com]

[...pets your cheek]

If you don't want to push Kitten's lines, then lay down your own. Just as you can do much without really doing anything, you can also just truly do nothing. Kitten isn't stupid, he'll figure it out.

Re: [Everywhere]

[brother_con.insanejournal.com]

[s-startles a little, but doesn't move away.]

I don't understand...

Re: [Everywhere]

[hemogobbled.insanejournal.com]

Stop flirting back.

Re: [Everywhere]

[brother_con.insanejournal.com]

[blinks. Con...siders this...]



...I may be greedy too.

Re: [Everywhere]

[hemogobbled.insanejournal.com]

Well then you can't really complain, can you?

[sits back]

Re: [Everywhere]

[brother_con.insanejournal.com]

[h-huff]

If he's going to offer me anything, I can't just reject it...

Re: [Everywhere]

[hemogobbled.insanejournal.com]

Sure you can. But if you want it you should take it and enjoy it.

Re: [Everywhere]

[brother_con.insanejournal.com]

Should I really...?