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[devilishfiend.insanejournal.com]

Who: Lyvus and visitors
Where: Lyvress
When: Day 295, post-game
What: after game cuddlepile

[Four revived-but-not-completely-healed Corvi and a bitten-but-not-bleeding survived Lynx coming back from the Arena. Everything is terrible and everything hurts, but at least we got memories.]

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[crossboundaries.insanejournal.com]

There was one of those games. Heart ones. He went into my heart and then came out and asked that. He hardly remembers anything...

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

He saw your heart, then asked that?

[crossboundaries.insanejournal.com]

[nods]

I don't know... whether anyone changed anything in me...

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

Did you ask them?

. . . do you feel different?

[crossboundaries.insanejournal.com]

The rest of Lyvus said they didn't see or change much ... just a pile of corpses.

...

Miharu said he rode a love train through outer space and talked to Hope and Reason and took Love's hat and put it on my bed and cleaned a bathroom and hit Hate in the face and made it hide under a bed. And that I was gone and he didn't want that.

So I don't know what that means.

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

. . .

[brings a hand to his own forehead, huffing, like he's not sure whether or not it would be alright to laugh]

[crossboundaries.insanejournal.com]

[pulls his hat down a bit]

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

It doesn't sound like he changed much, necessarily, just . . . interacted with it.

[crossboundaries.insanejournal.com]

I don't know how to tell... but either way...

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

Either way, he came out, and asked you that.

[crossboundaries.insanejournal.com]

...[nods]

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

He hadn't—ever said that before? In your memories?

[crossboundaries.insanejournal.com]

He has... but... he always let it go, because he knew I...

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

He was putting your desires above his.

[crossboundaries.insanejournal.com]

...

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

Is that right?

[crossboundaries.insanejournal.com]

I... yes...

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

And you don't know what to do.

[crossboundaries.insanejournal.com]

[nods] I shouldn't even consider...

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

Why not?

[crossboundaries.insanejournal.com]

I've done everything so far... to undo the impact of my life. I remember choosing this... choosing this path, and why.

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

You're wavering. Honestly, I think you always have been.

[crossboundaries.insanejournal.com]

...I can't... but...

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

You could.

[crossboundaries.insanejournal.com]

The idea of living...indefinitely, with myself ...is just...