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[devilishfiend.insanejournal.com]

Who: Lyvus and visitors
Where: Lyvress
When: Day 295, post-game
What: after game cuddlepile

[Four revived-but-not-completely-healed Corvi and a bitten-but-not-bleeding survived Lynx coming back from the Arena. Everything is terrible and everything hurts, but at least we got memories.]

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[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

No, I know you're not proud. But I suppose the major difference between you and I is, if there is a world where Night's existence is wrong, I would just as soon rip apart and change the entire world.

You are fine just the way you are.

[crossboundaries.insanejournal.com]

[bites his lower lip and puts his hat on]

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You're one of the best things about this place, to me.

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...Royal...

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I really mean it.

In the end, you have to make up your own mind, but other than Miharu, you know, there's at least one other person that knows a good deal about you and would selfishly hate for you to stop existing.

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[t-tugs his brim down] I don't think any of you should think that. But...

[ttttrails off oh no thank yous are too hard '-']

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You're really important to me.

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Royal... [protesting]

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What?

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You... to me, too.

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Thank you.

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It just feels like standing at the edge of a cliff.

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. . . yes.

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And it's a long way down.

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It's hard to trust that you'll be alright.

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[nods]

If I decide to live, and regret living. That would be the worst thing to do to him.

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. . . mm.

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I'm already... hurting people with that.

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It would hurt, but . . . I think if that's what you really wanted . . .

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In all my memories, getting stronger the older I got, I was always wanting it... not to die. Never to die. Not to leave an imprint on everyone with my death. But just to fade away like objects in the darkness. Where their edges get softer and slowly disperse and eventually they're nothing at all.

[taking his hat off again, turning it over and over in his hands]

Maybe my mother would be alive then. Everyone I killed. Perhaps my family would be different. In that dark place where I'd never been born.

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I don't think the world works like that.

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It could.

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You can't undo the past.

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That was my goal.

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I don't think it's possible.