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[thegooddouche.insanejournal.com]

Who: idk!!
Where: Outside the Pygnus area
When: Day 145, Morning (...after Dinobird has fled)
What: some dude in red EXPLORING

Huh. So where are these Judges. . .?

Comments

[pierrotdetous.insanejournal.com]

. . .

I don't dislike you at all, Dove. I wouldn't be pushing it but. . . he's important to me.

[doomclocked.insanejournal.com]

...I'm not stopping you. If you make Miranda-chan happy, and you make him happy, then it's fine.

I just... don't understand you, that's all.

[pierrotdetous.insanejournal.com]

. . .What is hard to understand?

[doomclocked.insanejournal.com]

...I don't want to start another fight right now.

[pierrotdetous.insanejournal.com]

. . .


Sorry... I don't want to fight either.

[doomclocked.insanejournal.com]

But that's how it always turns out. I'm really no good at talking, or being likeable.

[pierrotdetous.insanejournal.com]

. . .

If neither of us want to fight, I think we'll manage.

[doomclocked.insanejournal.com]

...

[pierrotdetous.insanejournal.com]

. . . I mess up a lot of things. I messed up with you. But I really. . . regret it.

Though I know that's not really my place. But it wasn't any fault of yours.

[doomclocked.insanejournal.com]

Ah... that's...

[doomclocked.insanejournal.com]

[...sniffs danger danger incoming tears]

[pierrotdetous.insanejournal.com]

[oh god I hope Blood is distracted]

--I'm sorry.

[doomclocked.insanejournal.com]

This is so stupid! Something like that... it was all I really wanted to hear in the first place!

[pierrotdetous.insanejournal.com]

. . . Ah. . .

[doomclocked.insanejournal.com]

I wanted it to matter. Maybe that's selfish or childish, but that's just how I felt. It felt so wrong and awful the way things happened but it seemed like everyone just carried on like nothing even happened, or we'd done something wrong, or it should have happened, and it was scary...

[pierrotdetous.insanejournal.com]

. . .No, that's not-- that's not childish at all. I never ever thought it didn't matter, you didn't do anything wrong. Giving reasons like I did, I never... not once did I mean it like an excuse that made it okay. I'm so sorry.

[doomclocked.insanejournal.com]

Everything's such a mess now.

[pierrotdetous.insanejournal.com]

Things are always a mess.

[doomclocked.insanejournal.com]

It's so stupid.

[pierrotdetous.insanejournal.com]

. . .Isn't it normal?

[doomclocked.insanejournal.com]

...Eh?

[pierrotdetous.insanejournal.com]

To be a mess. Feeling lonely or scared. Having regrets and big fights and making huge mistakes. We're just humans. I don't think it's stupid at all.

[doomclocked.insanejournal.com]

...That's what being 'normal' means. I don't know... if it's something we're really allowed to do.

[pierrotdetous.insanejournal.com]

Sure it is. Why not?

[doomclocked.insanejournal.com]

Doing things for the good of everyone and being true to your feelings are sometimes very different things.