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Who: Lacerta!
Where: their dorm
When: Day 144, post-game
What: MEEEEEEMORIES!

Hmmm, how about, Razzy first? Since it's her first one and all!

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Huh?

There's never been anyone so close... I feel like that too.

But somehow I don't tell you a lot. I feel like it's enough. Like I don't want to talk about my life anymore. I stopped thinking it was just a given that I could trust you with anything, and started thinking it'd be better if I kept my mouth shut.

Do you think there's any real reason I should feel that way?

What? No! You should be able to tell me anything.

I know. . . even when I thought I was dead, you helped me and we complained together and you stole my food. Nobody gets babied here... it's not like we think we're weak when we learn something terrible.

Mm, exactly. So, anything, Allen . . .

So how come you hid that you were dead for so long?

[ffffffffffffffff] T-that's . . .

What was the reason?

Well, I didn't want to talk about it at all, really. But, the reason? Maybe . . .

I get not wanting to talk about it! But you kept the worst thing a secret for that long!

I've known you did that for weeks and I've had no idea how to even ask you why, the longer and longer it went on.

I wasn't hiding it! I just . . . I didn't want to say.

Isn't it hiding it after a month?

Mm. . .

Even longer than that. . .

I wouldn't have made you talk about it. I wouldn't have made you do anything.

You could have told me. You should have told me. Told any of us. Told Spock! If we're closer than anyone, why can't you say something that important?

Allen . . . I'm sorry. I should have.

You don't have to say sorry. It just shouldn't be like that.

It wasn't because I don't trust you! It's nothing like that . . . !

Then what?

I'm . . . afraid of it.

. . .

That doesn't mean it's okay to never mention it at all to even the people closest to you.

I didn't want to. I didn't even want to think about it. It's cowardly I know. For a Cetra, returning to the Planet, it's our "Promised Land," supreme happiness. And maybe it's only because I was like that, that I could save everyone, but still.

I. I would never get to kiss Cloud, or try on dresses with Tifa, or ride an airship. Even if it's "how things should be," it's scary.

Because I love life. I loved it even in the labs, or in Midgar when I felt so alone, or even here where it's scary and painful. Thinking about my life, returned to the Planet already, it just hurt. It hurt too much, because I really love being alive, Allen.

. . .