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Who: Lacerta!
Where: their dorm
When: Day 144, post-game
What: MEEEEEEMORIES!

Hmmm, how about, Razzy first? Since it's her first one and all!

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Mm. . .

Even longer than that. . .

I wouldn't have made you talk about it. I wouldn't have made you do anything.

You could have told me. You should have told me. Told any of us. Told Spock! If we're closer than anyone, why can't you say something that important?

Allen . . . I'm sorry. I should have.

You don't have to say sorry. It just shouldn't be like that.

It wasn't because I don't trust you! It's nothing like that . . . !

Then what?

I'm . . . afraid of it.

. . .

That doesn't mean it's okay to never mention it at all to even the people closest to you.

I didn't want to. I didn't even want to think about it. It's cowardly I know. For a Cetra, returning to the Planet, it's our "Promised Land," supreme happiness. And maybe it's only because I was like that, that I could save everyone, but still.

I. I would never get to kiss Cloud, or try on dresses with Tifa, or ride an airship. Even if it's "how things should be," it's scary.

Because I love life. I loved it even in the labs, or in Midgar when I felt so alone, or even here where it's scary and painful. Thinking about my life, returned to the Planet already, it just hurt. It hurt too much, because I really love being alive, Allen.

. . .

[aaaa aaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa hugs her]

[I AM THE WORST CETRA]

That's not "how it should be!" It's not how it should be at all. It's not okay!

It's not-

The Promised Land, it's really beautiful. It's everyone, everything, all the life and memories that ever existed on the Planet. And at the time, I didn't really mind, but . . .

. . .

But you died.

Mm. There was a lot I really wanted to do, still.

. . . You'll get to do everything. You're here... we'll get your wish together.

Right . . .

[squeeze aaah]

And Cloud will be okay. . . Zack will be with you too.

Mm. [hand in his hair]

You know, he said he was giving up.

Cloud?

He doesn't think he can fight her anymore.