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Who: Lyvus and visitors
Where: Lyvress
When: Day 295, post-game
What: after game cuddlepile

[Four revived-but-not-completely-healed Corvi and a bitten-but-not-bleeding survived Lynx coming back from the Arena. Everything is terrible and everything hurts, but at least we got memories.]

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I don't... know.

I've lived a ghost's existence since I was born.

Not here.

[shakes his head, a little uncertainly, then firmly]

Not with Lyvus.

That's something.

I just... everything is frightening. Doing things for myself is. Doing it for love -- is more.

Yes . . . isn't it? It's the most frightening thing.

[laughing a little, softly, but not like he's laughing at Yoi-te, not at all]

[takes his hat off and squeezes it between his hands] I'm not. Good. At this. I'm not meant for this. But... I still.

...

Ah—?

[very quiet, looking at the hat in his hands] ...I'm not male or female.

[just nods]

Yes.

[flushes]

. . . it doesn't matter to us.

No... that's... I'm glad.

It matters to you, though—?

Yes -- of course...

I know. I know, I'm not saying it shouldn't. I just want to know how I can help . . . if I can.

[shudders, shaking his head, wrapping his arms around himself a little]

Don't... look at me any differently? [embarrassedddd] I mean -- just -- always, everyone is... "something".

Night, it's something I've at least suspected for quite a long time now. It's not a huge revelation—and even if it were, it wouldn't matter.

You're something, too. You might not fit into a binary category, but that's not necessary.

[flushes and looks away from at that first part]

That's not true. Our flawed world relies on it.

I've been around you a lot. We're close. I notice things. I never pursued the thought because it didn't matter to me.

Relies on it? Hardly.

If it wasn't so necessary, why would it always be separated?

People want the world to be simple, because it's easier to understand and control that way. But it is never that simple, no matter how hard we pretend it is. So the people that fall between the desperation for simplicity—well, it doesn't make them any less important, certainly. But it does mean the world fears what they cannot understand. However, what is feared is not always wrong—and what is misunderstood, is not always wrong, no matter how much those who wish to separate the world into black and white would like us to believe it is.

Society creates right and wrong. The world creates the colours the world wants to see.

I'm not proud or wanting to be right... I don't have anything I want to defend. I just want to vanish.

No, I know you're not proud. But I suppose the major difference between you and I is, if there is a world where Night's existence is wrong, I would just as soon rip apart and change the entire world.

You are fine just the way you are.

[bites his lower lip and puts his hat on]