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Who: Lyvus and visitors
Where: Lyvress
When: Day 295, post-game
What: after game cuddlepile

[Four revived-but-not-completely-healed Corvi and a bitten-but-not-bleeding survived Lynx coming back from the Arena. Everything is terrible and everything hurts, but at least we got memories.]

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You love him, don't you?

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[hesitates, then gives a jerky, belated nod]

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Don't let that slip away because you're afraid.

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I'm not... a good person to love. I'm a coward and a murderer, and I don't want to exist, and I'm dying, and on every level things aren't suitable...

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So you change the things that are able to be changed, and the rest aren't exactly going to get in the way of a love like that. Believe me.

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I don't, I don't know... He doesn't remember very much yet.

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That sounds like an excuse. Perhaps you should give him credit for knowing what he wants when he wants it.

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...

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I could be wrong . . .

[but I am Lelouch]

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In one of my memories...

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Ah . . .?

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We had betrayed Kairoushuu... the very powerful ninja clan that we worked for, that Yukimi and Kazuho worked for, and we were on the run... we were hiding out in a warehouse and I was ...maybe... a week from death... I passed out, and he slapped my cheeks and told me not to die until he could erase me, like we'd promised, but I was scared. We had nowhere to go, and we'd made the most powerful memories, and I didn't know what to do... I was babbling. And he handed me my hat and all I could see in his eyes was my own reflection.

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. . . Night . . .

[reaches out lightly, tucking Yoi-te's hair back]

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I don't know anything.

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What?

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About anything.

You're right. I'm terrified.

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Ah, but at least, if you're terrified in love, you're not alone. There's another person that's just as lost as you.

. . . I don't know if that's reassuring or not. But that's just sort of how it is.

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[dubious look...]

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Hahaha. It's worth it, though.

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You and Sunny are a bit different...

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Different?

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You're both adults with ...some idea of how these things go... and have felt it before... a little different?

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It's still utterly terrifying.

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[that isn't reassuring]

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But just think about him . . .