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slt_archive2011-07-31 09:26 pm
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Entry tags:
- !days 250-259,
- adachi emiri,
- akin iyapo shing kaalnikanjlo,
- allen walker,
- amy pond,
- apollo justice,
- aragaki shinjiro,
- ashikawa mitsuru,
- charles xavier,
- chrono,
- claude c. kenni,
- danielle 'dani' phantom,
- edward elric,
- excel,
- gokudera hayato,
- hattori heiji,
- impmon,
- jace beleren,
- jake berenson,
- johnny rayflo,
- kanou taisuke,
- kiryuu zero,
- kudo shinichi,
- kuroba kaito,
- kurosaki tasuku,
- lady,
- lulu,
- minami ikki,
- nakayama yayoi,
- rabi,
- raenef,
- rolo lamperouge,
- rory pond,
- shinonome kon,
- sion astal,
- sumeragi kururu,
- syaoran,
- takizawa yuta,
- tazendra,
- tifa lockhart,
- uchiha itachi,
- wanijima akito,
- wanijima kaito,
- watanuki kimihiro,
- yuffie kisaragi,
- zexion,
- {charles j. krishund},
- {doumeki shizuka},
- {emil castagnier},
- {kohaku},
- {mikura kazuma},
- {nicholas d. wolfwood},
- {rapunzel},
- {raven},
- {tsuchimiya kagura},
- {{{akatsuki chika}}},
- ~{mirror}
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Who: All the good little anti-entropy engine girls and boys and others
Where: On the way back towards the dorms
When: Day 258, evening, so very shortly after Good Ends
What:
[As the festivities end and it’s time to head back to dorms, there seems to hang an uneasy feeling that has nothing to do with bittersweet goodbyes. The particularly astute may notice an uncomfortable stillness about; not a living thing is out and active, save the Blanks. Even the river seems stilled, as if holding its breath. The more sensitive can probably feel it coming, whatever it is. Even the insensitive may find something about the walk home distasteful.]
Where: On the way back towards the dorms
When: Day 258, evening, so very shortly after Good Ends
What:
[As the festivities end and it’s time to head back to dorms, there seems to hang an uneasy feeling that has nothing to do with bittersweet goodbyes. The particularly astute may notice an uncomfortable stillness about; not a living thing is out and active, save the Blanks. Even the river seems stilled, as if holding its breath. The more sensitive can probably feel it coming, whatever it is. Even the insensitive may find something about the walk home distasteful.]
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The unrequited love is a really merciless master.
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You might not believe this, but Rolo can do anything he wants. Including finding his own life. And finding a new love.
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[pet]
I mean wants what you want to give. I don't doubt at all that he loves you, and wants you to love him. But isn't it true that you're always going to be second fiddle? Or third?
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Yes, it's true.
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I just want to be as important to Brother as he is to me, but that's impossible, so... like you say...
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Not liking people is a kink.
[drums fingers on your head =|a]
You got any friends?
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I don't know what you mean, a kink. A hitch, or erotic? [cranky]
...There's Lulu, I guess. She's not so bad. And I have my brother.
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Here's what I don't get. If people are so hard for you, why Kitten?
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But what makes you think he's the only one? If Kitten can be your family, so can others. How many fake brothers did you try on before you landed him?
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I never interacted with anybody who wasn't either part of the order that trained me or someone I was supposed to kill before I met him.
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So the first person who was nice to you you fell in love with.
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"Nice" is an understatement. Brother, when he believed I was someone I wasn't, treated me like the sun and the moon and the stars had come down into the palm of his hands.
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Does he still treat you like that?
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Things obviously got complicated when he broke free of the brainwashing. He used me. I let myself be used. Because I have a degree of power he wants to control, I let him control me. And even though he's come to love me, it's not the same. It isn't. But... my feelings... which I discovered in that time... they're real. So... It's fine. I'm not... Nunnally. He'll never love me like Nunnally, no matter how much I want to feel that again. But... nobody will love anybody like Brother loves Nunnally. He still... I genuinely do believe in his love. It's just hard that other people can step in... and take priority over me too.
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I don't really believe that your path is as set as you think it is. It seems to me you're experience with humans and a normal life has been too limited to say what will never happen.
But for the record, I'm sure Kitten loves you too. And loves you to love him, because he's greedy that way. But what he wants most is what Sunny can offer him. Not you. Not me. And even if he shies away from putting it in words, his actions make his decisions clear.
But if you're going to be second fiddle, you may as well be the best damn second fiddle you can be.
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I don't know what's set. But if I have something I want, I'm not going to let go of it. That would be foolish...
The best damn second fiddle...?
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