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[devilishfiend.insanejournal.com]

Who: Lyvus and visitors
Where: Lyvress
When: Day 295, post-game
What: after game cuddlepile

[Four revived-but-not-completely-healed Corvi and a bitten-but-not-bleeding survived Lynx coming back from the Arena. Everything is terrible and everything hurts, but at least we got memories.]

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[lone_centurion.insanejournal.com]

...who I am at the moment or who I w...I'm supposed to be?

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

. . .

Who you are now is a part of the Rory that I know, and vice versa. Who you are now won't be lost when the rest of Rory is regained . . . but there are a lot of memories that you need back. There's a part of Rory that I miss very dearly. But you are still, at the very least . . . Rory.

[lone_centurion.insanejournal.com]

... [Sighs.]

I'm not Rory. This isn't an issue of memory. There is too much that's wrong. It's not I can't remember, it's I can't remember what's him or shared with him.

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

[handwaves]

You are still a Rory. And I will get the Rory I know back. But I don't believe that you will disappear.

[lone_centurion.insanejournal.com]

I'm not him. I have my own life and name. I have nine solid years and that insane evening.

And I'm not planning on disappearing. [Or rather...hoping he won't, but he's not sure what else to do.]

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

Then I don't know what to say.

[lone_centurion.insanejournal.com]

... [Frustrated growl, running a hand through his hair.] I know what you're trying to do. I appreciate it, I do. [Sort of, at least.] You mean well.

But I'm not him and I can't be. If I try to hard, it just becomes painful. I'm obviously missing important things, yes, but it's just..

As close as I can figure, if I accept the insanely strange, he died and somehow he was put in with me. Gods know enough strange things were happening that night to make anything seem possible. But he was always 'someone else' when I was a child.

No idea how the inhuman body came about. Or the laser hand. [H-haha, hhasn't been informed about the Nestene yet.]

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

. . .

[lone_centurion.insanejournal.com]

But you're right. He's important to everyone. And he obviously has something he can remember that I can't. If there is a way for us both to be here, he's going to know it. At least it's the only way I can explain the flashes that don't give me a splitting headache.

I'm not going to stop him from coming back, but I can't pretend to be him. [It just too much for him to try.]