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[devilishfiend.insanejournal.com]

Who: Lyvus and visitors
Where: Lyvress
When: Day 295, post-game
What: after game cuddlepile

[Four revived-but-not-completely-healed Corvi and a bitten-but-not-bleeding survived Lynx coming back from the Arena. Everything is terrible and everything hurts, but at least we got memories.]

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[sonuva_gun.insanejournal.com]

[... oh gdit, Winchester, you're getting hugged by a noodle ;;b not returning the hug but not shoving him away either

shaaaky breath, regrouping here]

Fuckin' right...

Just. Gonna tell the others... after things settle down.

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

[honestly Dean Winchester, I think both of us needed more hugs in our lives]

Tell them what, exactly?

And you didn't exactly answer me.

[sonuva_gun.insanejournal.com]

What to expect if I keep taking memories.

[and god, I don't. even want to think about everything that scares me right now]

... s'pretty damn obvious.

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

I'm not very clever. You might have to spell it out for me.

[sonuva_gun.insanejournal.com]

[thinking it over, mostly because... feelings are hard. so hard. and there's probably bit of a painful laugh after a moment]

When our teams first woke up... I was the first one on Corvus. People kept asking, "Where's your teammates?" And I didn't know.

... it fucking terrifies me, thinking... I'm the only one left. Because I failed to save Sammy. And then...

[--nnnope. stopping there. I can be tactful. also, what am I, four? worst.]

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

Sometimes, things happen that are out of our control. Or if they were in control, and we failed, somehow? Somewhere—. . . Losing a sibling—that you loved, that you grew up with, that you raised, that you promised to protect . . . any of those, all of those, that's the worst feeling in the world, isn't it? "What could I have done, what could I have done?"

But we still have things to fight for even after all of that. And it's not over. It's not over.

[sonuva_gun.insanejournal.com]

No. It wouldn't be.

'Cause that's when the monsters'll come. And that's when I'd just let the world burn.

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

Hahaha . . .

[wiping his eyes with the back of his sleeve, sitting back, laughing dryly]

[sonuva_gun.insanejournal.com]

[stays there and. yeah.]

Fuckin' angel should've just left me down there... same end result. Monsters get Dean Winchester. End of story.

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

Dean Winchester still has other options available.

[sonuva_gun.insanejournal.com]

Yep.

Get eaten by the earth. Get eaten by a judge. Or somehow pulling a miracle out of our collective asses, ruining this place, getting our wishes, freeing everyone, and living happily ever after.

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

We only have everything to lose.

[sonuva_gun.insanejournal.com]

... y'know. The angel who said that to me? He's in the pillar too. Actually was friends with him after the whole "I am a Warrior of God" attitude thing.

Like hell I'm gonna leave Cas and Sam in there.

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

My little sister is in there, too.

[sonuva_gun.insanejournal.com]

... so we kill us some wannabe-gods and bust 'em out.

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

That's the general idea.

[sonuva_gun.insanejournal.com]

I'm game for a good hunt.

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

I'm very glad.

[sonuva_gun.insanejournal.com]

[... laughs a bit before rubbing his face again]

Sure are good people in this place.

[zeromemories.insanejournal.com]

We do alright.