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Who: Lyvus and visitors
Where: Lyvress
When: Day 295, post-game
What: after game cuddlepile

[Four revived-but-not-completely-healed Corvi and a bitten-but-not-bleeding survived Lynx coming back from the Arena. Everything is terrible and everything hurts, but at least we got memories.]

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. . . let me look after Spark, first, then.

Yes, look after Spark first. I'll be upstairs.

[coming up after]

Dagger—?

Yes? Brass looked me over already. He wouldn't let me go upstairs without someone else treating me first.

[Wounds cleaned and bandaged to some extent at least.]

. . . alright.

[looks a little unsure, but sitting on the bed, looking at him patiently. looks tired, but calm, and mostly back to normal]

So. What did you want to talk about?

I asked Jace from Canis to remove my memories. But he won't do it unless you agree since you are our leader.

[. . . thank you Jace]

. . . remove your memories?

Of my past. I should never have started taking the memories in the first place once I came here. There's nothing good left for me to remember at this point. There's nothing left at all for me in the place I came from, but... it still bothers me. Everything I did back then, it will always bother me as long as I can remember. I won't ever be able to start over.

I . . . do sympathize. I do. But at the same time, our reactions to having done terrible things, and what we've learned from them, are part of what make us who we are.

I know I'd be different, but it would be better for everyone.

I love this Dagger, right here. For all that he's done, and all that we've been through. So I wouldn't be able to say that anything that cost me the loss of any part of you would be better.

[Just looks up surprised.]

...What?

But... But what about what will happen afterwards?

What do you mean?

Back 'Home'... everyone is dead. My family has been dead since I was kidnapped, and I killed my friends. Or at least those that didn't die in the war. There's nothing left.

It's not okay towards everyone in my past to just leave somewhere else like this.

Not settled in your heart, you mean.

. . . I'm also in a similar position, you know.

What will you do?

It's . . . been very difficult. To get to a point where I found something I wanted to live for more than the regrets I wanted to die for.

I promised Spark I would go with him, but... I don't think I deserve it. Not like this.

There are some things we simply cannot find it in ourselves to be redeemed of. But . . . do you intend to bury the skeletons in your closet so deeply that they'll never bother you, and live life that way? I think that's much more selfish.

I know it is! But the rest of them will think it's selfish if I use my wish to try to set right some of the wrongs in my world and then go back to being dead. I'm selfish no matter what I do.

If you could set things right, then step away from it and live on your own—would you? Would that be alright, do you think?

There's no point if I'll be all alone again.

[reaches out for him, firmly]

You'll never, ever have to be alone.

I don't know what to do...

Come here.