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Who: Lyvus and visitors
Where: Lyvress
When: Day 295, post-game
What: after game cuddlepile

[Four revived-but-not-completely-healed Corvi and a bitten-but-not-bleeding survived Lynx coming back from the Arena. Everything is terrible and everything hurts, but at least we got memories.]

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...no. Did no one explain that yet?

...No...

[...fun.]

I took a memory and it did something strange. I can only remember the first twelve of Lyvus clearly and I can't remember any days clearly after our first memory taking. It's all fuzzy.

And from my perspective, 'Rory' is an insane figment from a curse from the gods, but I've been led to believe that's not the case somehow.

...

That's no good...

Have you talked to your girlfriend about this-?

[Girlfriend...] Do you mean Amy? I thought she was Rory's fiance.

Yes, that.

She just insisted I was Rory and her fiance when I met her after the Heart Game.

And could...remember Rory this time around. Which I still don't understand, she didn't know who I was at all from my memories even though I could recognize her.

He said something before... about his existence disappearing, and that changing things for his world? I don't... remember the details.

...

The man. The Doctor. I remember talking to him. Well, I remember talking to him and thinking I was actually Rory. [Which he is dubious about.]

He was talking about...cracks in time, in the universe and that somehow made it so I was never born.

Which is ridiculous. I was born, I had a life. Rory is... [A long pause.] Was....supposed to be a dream. [Rubs at his head.] I don't really understand it. It sounded insane, and with Amy not remembering, I thought it was some figment and the man was just crazy, but with everyone reacting here and that woman...

[He's not so sure.]

Maybe you're both real.

...who knows. I really can't say, but it's obvious that Rory is greatly missed.

He's... important family to the people here.

Yes. That much...was quite obvious by the horrified looks when everyone realized the problem.

Does it upset you-?

... [A short chuckle.] It really doesn't matter if it does, does it?

If it stays like this, 'Rory' will disappear. And I won't do that to my team.

You're both...real. And you're fighting hard for Lyvus.

...

Yes. That's why I'm all right taking this sort of risk. That guy is still going to try and take care of everyone. No matter what, someone is looking out for you.

...? I don't understand.

Things are still fuzzy, not a complete and utter blank. I am sort of hoping there's some coexistence thing he had managed that I can't remember because everything that's 'him' got...messed with.

[nods....]

I don't think we'd be satisfied losing either person who had lived with us...?

No, that...I don't think anyone whose given it too much thought is happy about it.

But I don't like the idea of looking at people and not recognizing them. I wouldn't wish that pain on even my enemies.

Not recognizing them as who they were-?

...

Basically. I have a little on Bond and Dagger. All I can remember about you and Royal is what team you're on, your names, and faces. Everyone else...

It's not a pain I want on others, not after feeling it myself. Maybe it was only so bad because I was crazy, but it looked the same for at least some of them.

So I want to be able to look at people important to me and know them and not be confused by what I need to do for them.

[puts a hand over his own mouth as he thinks]

...

[I am a bunch of Feelings right now. Probably shouldn't have even said anything, but bluh bluh, how do I even deal with all the problems I have right now?]