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Who: Pyxis and Visitors
Where: Pyxis
When: Day 267, Afternoon
What: [Memories and mingling at your leisure!]

[After derping around the main area awkwardly for a while D'Eon finally speaks up]

-- Ah, while things were a little waylaid by everyone... transforming... it does seem that things are back to normal now, and I was wondering if there were any procedure around taking our memories? I haven't, yet...

... [and while on the subject of being awkward as hell]...

As well, ah, the last I desire to do is take advantage of recent misfortunes, but I have been sleeping on the floor to date, and with ...fewer people... I was wondering about the possibility of perhaps claiming a room-?

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There is!

There...there is...

[And the anger cools and she looks sad.] It's not always there. It's not always in time, but there's justice.

Heiji brings justice to the dead, for those who they left behind. If there was anything good in having to see so many murders, it's because of that.

Justice exists.

*...won't argue, but just goes silent...*

Justice...justice won't come without effort. And it's not somethin' people can get alone. It's hard to brin' justice and sometimes bad thin's happen when yer tryin' ta get it.

But that's why ya can't give up on it. The moment ya give up on it, it's impossible to ever get.

If you say so.

...Ophiuchus...we're not justice.

Back then, a long time ago, there was something, but now...

[Falls silent, looking down.]

Please...please don't...

...don't what?

Don't...

It's fine....ta argue with me. Ta yell at me and disagree with me. It's fine ta call me Kazuha. It's fine ta call me an idiot or a stupid girl or whatever.

It's fine ta just...treat me like ya did before. Even when ya were frustratin', I LIKED it. I dunno why, I'm weird. I mean, I did fall in love with Heiji and ya saw how I am with him.

...I... I can't... I can't get into any more trouble... I fucked up with Roy just being myself... I can't trust...

...if it's not a stated rule, the sleeping over, the no punching the walls, that stuff, or a game, I won't hurt ya. And if it's that stuff, I won't more than I have ta. I would avoid it as much as I could, honestly.

I...I hate hurtin' others. It's one thin' if it's a slap or somethin', but bein' cruel...it's not somethin' I want ta be.

Bein' yerself, it's not somethin' I'm gonna hurt ya for.

I can't trust that! Blaze...! He says he's my friend now, but it's only on his terms! It's the same with everyone... almost everyone else! If I just... If I just shut up, just do what I'm told and stay quiet, I might... I might get through this!

[Opens her mouth, but then stops. No, no, she wasn't going to let her emotions get the better of her. If she did, she'd just make it worse.]

...

I don't...want ta make ya afraid of me. I don't. But I don't know how ta prove that...

[Damn it, Blaze. You BROKE someone. You broke him and she doesn't want someone to be afraid of her. She doesn't want to be seen as a monster and this isn't RIGHT.]

*shakes his head*

C-can I... Can I go now? Please?

...

[Looks away, her tone quiet.] Ya don't need my permission.

...if you say so.

*is going to escape into Pyxis now, if she'll let him*

[Let's him.]

[And now she will just sadface for a while.]

[Hanging out by Pyxis to talk to Weed when oh my sad teammate]

Hey, Kazuha? You okay?

...

[I am debating brave face or continued sad face.]

[Or angry, go yell at Roy face.]

[That conflicted face tells me enough. Puts an arm round her shoulder]

What happened?

...Blaze is a moron.

What'd he do now?

I...I knew Weed-san would have some bad reaction. That I expected, so when I met him, I didn't tell him my team.

I didn't want to scare off Heiji's friend.

But...but the fact Blaze did THAT much damage... [Gritting her teeth, fists clenching at her sides.] That....idiot.

[This has turned into an all out hug]

Damn... Weed's pretty scared of Ophiuchus, they've bullied him a lot... You're a really nice girl, so if you take it gentle and just keep being yourself he'll see you're not a danger to him.

Blaze... Blaze told me Weed tried to kill him. But, after talking to him, I don't know that I believe that.

[...I am totally fine with this hug.]

I'm gonna try. I just...don't want ta hurt him. Especially when he's Heiji's friend.

... [WHY do I keep getting new spins on this story today?] Was...he upset at the time?

It might've been better if you were honest from the start, but I get not telling him. We get a lot of prejudice, so it's easier not to talk about it.

I don't know. At the time he was pretty huffy about it, but then he said he was bringing Cygnus food because they couldn't grow any, so he can't've held that much of a grudge.

He shut down as soon as he saw me. I don't think he'd have done anythin' else if I told him.

I told Blaze, after it, ta tell me what happened, just the bare bone facts. He said Weed knocked him out. Though he left out the bit about the FIRE. [And there's bitterness in her tone there. Does not like he left that out.]

[Sighs.] Blaze is a good man. But he wasn't thinkin' right. He wasn't thinkin' right at all and he made a horrible, horrible decision.