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Who: Lightning Rod!11
Where: Lacerta!!11
When: Day 217, Afternoon!!11
What: !!!!1111one

[AFTER CHECKING ON DOLPHINS gosh this sure seems like a good time to go check on his FAAAAAAAAAVORITE LIZARDS--]

[only BAM. One second you see him running head first to their dorm, the next second he's bouncing waaay back into a pile of rocks]

[wat is this trickery \e_e/]

--what the heck was that?!

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[mrrrr]

...I know.

But I don't know what to do anymore. Even in my memories, there was always something that I could do, to support or protect others or move a little closer to granting my wish.

Then there has to be something you can do here too. You just haven't found it yet.

Maybe.

But until I do, I'm just another burden that everyone must carry.

[shakes his head]

Yuuko-san told me once that the only free exchange in life is that of "feelings.'

I know. Everything else has a price.

Mmm. That means you don't have to pay us back for us loving you. You aren't a burden.

But... I cause a lot of worry and trouble. And I don't give anything back for that.

Worry is still "feelings."

...

And really, worry is a lot more selfish than love, when you come down to it.

It's not selfish. It comes with caring for others.

Then there's no reason why Syaoran can't accept those feelings, right?

And if those feelings are hurting others?

... is it hurting you?

...That others would worry?

Yes. Because I don't think we mind the hurt of worrying.

It's not that.

I want to give others something other than 'worry'. They said it helps when I 'try hard' but I don't know what that means.

It means you're doing the best that you can do, as best you can. Nobody has any right to ask for more than that.

They never would.

But I don't know what it is that I am supposed to try so hard at.

I ... I guess I don't know, honestly.

[pause]

Could you teach me how to use a sword?

You want to learn it?

[nods]

Father taught me how a long time ago, but I've forgotten just about all of it.

I can try, though I don't know if I am a suitable teacher.

It would probably be a good idea to make you a wooden practice sword to start.

[n-nods]

Swinging around live steel would be a little ...

Dangerous. It's also heavy. You would probably want something lighter to start.