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[getto_daze.insanejournal.com]

Who: Lightning Rod!11
Where: Lacerta!!11
When: Day 217, Afternoon!!11
What: !!!!1111one

[AFTER CHECKING ON DOLPHINS gosh this sure seems like a good time to go check on his FAAAAAAAAAVORITE LIZARDS--]

[only BAM. One second you see him running head first to their dorm, the next second he's bouncing waaay back into a pile of rocks]

[wat is this trickery \e_e/]

--what the heck was that?!

Comments

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

Then what makes 'that one instance' right? When is it wrong?

[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

It depends on the situation. I can't tell -- I'm not good at judging that. You have a much better head for dangerous things than I do.

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

...I don't think I do.

Did you know that I failed to save Sakura in your heart? And not only that, but I made her cry. And I made her feel worthless. She said that she could not even face us.

I can't protect anything. I can stand in the way of an attack, but that still...

[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

Syaoran ...

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

...It still hurts them. And on top of that, it hurts you. So no matter what I choose to do, I'm letting people be hurt.

[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

[reaches out to hug him]

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

[lets him, but doesn't return it yet]

...

[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

You are my most precious friend. If all else fails, I am grateful every day that you are with me.

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

Even though I hurt you?

[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

I would rather be wracked with pain every day for the rest of my life than lose my connection to you.

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

...

But that's horrible. That I would cause you pain just by existing.

[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

Y-you don't! It's a hypothetical!

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

I do.

You're hurting right now.

[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

That's different! You're doing everything you can to lessen it, even now!

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

...

[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

The point is that I love you. And so do a lot of other people.

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

[mrrrr]

...I know.

But I don't know what to do anymore. Even in my memories, there was always something that I could do, to support or protect others or move a little closer to granting my wish.

[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

Then there has to be something you can do here too. You just haven't found it yet.

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

Maybe.

But until I do, I'm just another burden that everyone must carry.

[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

[shakes his head]

Yuuko-san told me once that the only free exchange in life is that of "feelings.'

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

I know. Everything else has a price.

[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

Mmm. That means you don't have to pay us back for us loving you. You aren't a burden.

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

But... I cause a lot of worry and trouble. And I don't give anything back for that.

[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

Worry is still "feelings."

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

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