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[getto_daze.insanejournal.com]

Who: Lightning Rod!11
Where: Lacerta!!11
When: Day 217, Afternoon!!11
What: !!!!1111one

[AFTER CHECKING ON DOLPHINS gosh this sure seems like a good time to go check on his FAAAAAAAAAVORITE LIZARDS--]

[only BAM. One second you see him running head first to their dorm, the next second he's bouncing waaay back into a pile of rocks]

[wat is this trickery \e_e/]

--what the heck was that?!

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[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

[shakes his head]

There has to be something. I know there is.

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

...

[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

Please believe it. If nothing else, you saved your team during the Mirror game, didn't you?

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

...

What... what do you mean? In the last game?

[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

[nods]

You took the maim for them. It would have been much worse if she'd gotten her hands on anyone else.

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

...

We didn't win because of me. If it had been my choice alone... we definitely would have lost.

[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

Then you protected them. Even simple things like that help.

[ppppause]

Not -- not that you should take the damage for the team like that all the time! You're worth more than that!

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

––No, I didn't. Ace and Red did that. The only thing that I did in that game that came even close to protecting anyone... was just like you said.

[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

[dangerrrr]

In that one instance then. Y-you shouldn't sacrifice yourself in general!

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

Then what makes 'that one instance' right? When is it wrong?

[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

It depends on the situation. I can't tell -- I'm not good at judging that. You have a much better head for dangerous things than I do.

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

...I don't think I do.

Did you know that I failed to save Sakura in your heart? And not only that, but I made her cry. And I made her feel worthless. She said that she could not even face us.

I can't protect anything. I can stand in the way of an attack, but that still...

[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

Syaoran ...

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

...It still hurts them. And on top of that, it hurts you. So no matter what I choose to do, I'm letting people be hurt.

[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

[reaches out to hug him]

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

[lets him, but doesn't return it yet]

...

[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

You are my most precious friend. If all else fails, I am grateful every day that you are with me.

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

Even though I hurt you?

[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

I would rather be wracked with pain every day for the rest of my life than lose my connection to you.

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

...

But that's horrible. That I would cause you pain just by existing.

[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

Y-you don't! It's a hypothetical!

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

I do.

You're hurting right now.

[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

That's different! You're doing everything you can to lessen it, even now!

[time_andagain.insanejournal.com]

...

[ghostduster.insanejournal.com]

The point is that I love you. And so do a lot of other people.