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Who: Lyvus and visitors
Where: Just outside the dorms
When: Day 189, night
What: Downtime ~~and getting chloroformed apparently~~

[Night is sitting outside of Corvus, making more needles out of bone. He's improved at bone carving, and is working on a fair variety -- mostly small and straight, but a few curved and one or two longer. Just chillin'.]

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Me neither...

It's exhausting.

...though we'd get memories faster, that way...

I think I'd rather have it slowly than fast if that were the case, and if I had to choose.

I'd rather... but I also know I don't have that much time. But it's not up to us, anyway.

[he straightens. ah... that's right]

Can I ask what's affecting you? Is it a sickness?

I don't... remember all the details. But Jace says my life is... leaking, basically. It's... happening in my memories, too. In them, I'm in a hurry, because I'm running out of time.

Water...!

Night, I can change water into something that helps with healing wounds. It's not very strong, but maybe it could help you?

...Maybe. I --

...I've put enough together I think I know what it is. And... I don't think it can be stopped. But I'd try. I'd tell you, if you wanted, but...

But...?

You won't like it.

...I'll try anything you have. I can trade you something like this if you sew. [gestures to the needles] Though your team probably makes their own...

[pauses] Needles would be fine for trade... I don't sew, but the others do. It would mean less work for the others the next time they need a needle.

...And, if you'd rather I not know... that's okay too. Even if it's something that can't be changed, I'd like to try and do what I can.

[nods]

...In my memories, I have the ability to kill people with my life force. That I can somehow put it inside other people and kill them. But I whittle away my life with it. I remember hearing people say that the cost of the technique is that I'll definitely die. There's only one person who could stop it, if I'd wanted him to, and if he'd learned to use his own ability in time. ...I remember dying of it, too. So I don't know if healing water can fix that. But if it gives me even a little more time... this is the time I have to get my wish.

[listens quietly, his expression calm... sad.]

Night...

...I told you you wouldn't.

I'm sorry.

[looks down] But it's better to know than not, I think. And this ability... you used it while knowing it would harm you?

I don't remember how I learned it or why. But yes.

And then eventually...

I'm sorry. All the same, thank-you for telling me. There's a lot of things people will remember... and not all of them easy to regain or speak of. How much time do you think you have?

[nods to the eventually and... doesn't fill it out.]

I don't... have an easy time, talking about things. This one isn't so bad. This one's... a little obvious, anyway.

Jace said the bracers are slowing it, and I might have a year or more. So... I just have to keep playing and aiming for my wish.

I see. I wonder if it's possible to ask a Judge what could be done... though, no, that's probably not the safest option. Is your wish to be well again?

[shakes his head]

[tilts his own]

...?

It's something else.

[he looks very curious]

[...after a long moment, leans forward, hands resting on his knees, and looks Taiki in the eyes]

I don't think you'll approve. Nobody has.

I want not to exist.

But... you said you remember dying...?