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Who: Lacerta!
Where: their dorm
When: Day 144, post-game
What: MEEEEEEMORIES!

Hmmm, how about, Razzy first? Since it's her first one and all!

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Allen . . . I'm sorry. I should have.

You don't have to say sorry. It just shouldn't be like that.

It wasn't because I don't trust you! It's nothing like that . . . !

Then what?

I'm . . . afraid of it.

. . .

That doesn't mean it's okay to never mention it at all to even the people closest to you.

I didn't want to. I didn't even want to think about it. It's cowardly I know. For a Cetra, returning to the Planet, it's our "Promised Land," supreme happiness. And maybe it's only because I was like that, that I could save everyone, but still.

I. I would never get to kiss Cloud, or try on dresses with Tifa, or ride an airship. Even if it's "how things should be," it's scary.

Because I love life. I loved it even in the labs, or in Midgar when I felt so alone, or even here where it's scary and painful. Thinking about my life, returned to the Planet already, it just hurt. It hurt too much, because I really love being alive, Allen.

. . .

[aaaa aaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa hugs her]

[I AM THE WORST CETRA]

That's not "how it should be!" It's not how it should be at all. It's not okay!

It's not-

The Promised Land, it's really beautiful. It's everyone, everything, all the life and memories that ever existed on the Planet. And at the time, I didn't really mind, but . . .

. . .

But you died.

Mm. There was a lot I really wanted to do, still.

. . . You'll get to do everything. You're here... we'll get your wish together.

Right . . .

[squeeze aaah]

And Cloud will be okay. . . Zack will be with you too.

Mm. [hand in his hair]

You know, he said he was giving up.

Cloud?

He doesn't think he can fight her anymore.

. . .

What does that mean?

He says that he's her puppet. That Sephiroth controls him.