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[you know what? YOU KNOW WHAT?]

No I'm not.

. . .

Tell me Cloud, how is my life better if I stay away from you?

I'm dangerous. You can't rely on me!

Everything here is dangerous. Anyone, on any team could be forced to hurt anyone else. A lot of them don't even think about it anymore. But the difference between every one else and Cloud is that I don't love anyone else the way I love you.

You can't. After all I've done-- everything and everyone I've failed. You need to stay away from me. You and Zack and Frey and Charlie all believed in me, and I failed again! Maybe I was never even struggling!

. . .

I refuse.

. . . You can't!

Yes I can. You're telling me to stay away from you, and I'm telling you that I won't and I'm not going to, no matter what you say. I refuse.

[looking a little desperate]

Sephiroth controls me already!

I still refuse.

I'm not going to let you refuse this! I won't hurt you!

Sorry, I won't let you tell me what to do either. Regardless of circumstances, Cloud is someone precious to me. Abandoning you again while you're hurting like this simply isn't an option for me. This might sound selfish, but that's how it is.

. . . [shakes his head, fisting his hands]

You already died protecting everyone, all alone. Protecting everyone from him and me. And I did everything I could to try to kill what you died protecting.

[nnnng talking about dying a lot 8\\\]

I still refuse.

[YEAH, YOU KNOW WHAT? THAT HAPPENED!]

If you don't stay away from me, I'll stay away from you. Unless someone decides I don't have any choice in that.

And where's my choice?

. . .

Being alone . . . it doesn't solve anything! Not then, not now, not ever! It just means that if you fail, there's no one there to help you. I know that it's a mistake, because I . . . [shakes her head]

Anyway. No matter what happens here, we'll get through it together. But you're not allowed to give up fighting. If you want to say "I'm nothing but a puppet," maybe I can't stop you, but I still won't be leaving you alone either. Especially not if you're suffering that much.

. . .

Aeris, I can't. . . I can't do this. I'm not who you think I am. The person I was with no memories, it was a lie made by taking away my entire life.

I'm the sum of all my patchwork memories and lies and experiments. This is me.

You don't have to be anything you're not, Cloud. No matter what happens, or what's done to you, or what has been done, my feelings for you aren't going to change.

. . .

And so . . . I'm not going to leave you. No matter what.

. . .

Why. . .I'll only. . .

It's OK Cloud. I know what could happen. But please, keep fighting too, because I can't give up on you.